Unbearable Pain: A Personal Fight Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid shocks, like lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort behind one eye that lasts up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more often affected. Attacks typically begin with sudden, excruciating agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. Another discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, 74, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like many causes, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose unusual treatments for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at fixed hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by global headache committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a physician researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But a lot of first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode eased.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the bouts of some individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout determines the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Amy Barton
Amy Barton

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